Wandering Emotions

In past years, life had changed alot, meet new people and gained new friends, maybe lost a few, and unablet to connect the old ones. Many things have evolved within oneself and even emotions have also evolved dramatically that you oftentimes you discover it by your own.

Love, sexual desires, failures, success, tragedy, horror and involve all the emotion that someone will gonna feel in many things and events in own life; all of these have contributed something to oneself changes one's that someone able to understand well why these things happened, cause I believed that everything happens for a reason and have a purpose. Someone who don't give time to understand the things that happened to one's life, is just so immature and not willing to learn nor wanting to evolve one's living. Everyone needs to evolve to live and being able to communicate with the world around.

Not all the changes that gonna happened to our life is a thing that we can't control but it's driven by our passion to learn and become stronger of what we wanted to be. However, there are few challenges that will come in our life and bring us into a journey of confusion that we may become a wander for so many years before we become able to understand things. We just need to be positive in all aspect even if the journey we are taking give us confusion and thus makes us more weak, yet, before we give up, we need to look the opposite way that our mind has think about that situation cause for some reason, the trip we take in our life is full of unsolved mysteries that will just be answered when we able to escaped the confusion we faced.

Lots of individuals did not able to foresee things in opposite way and that reason, they lost the battle that in some way will gonna make them more successful if they have not just fail to give their best shot. In life, as I able to understand it today, we just need to be careful with our doings in the present cause we have planted will be eventually give fruit of something that will surely make our journey wonderful or in tragic; depending on what we sow.

There are emotions that give headaches to us, confuse us on how we will gonna feel towards it and in some ways makes us do things unpredictably that sometimes beyond our expectation of ourselves and sometimes brought us to unwanted failures that can cause us to a decision to end oneself; but if you can't able to manage this situation, eventually you will become the greatest failure.

In life, just be what you are, don't try to imitate someone cause every individual writes his/her own story that can be pass through generations and may inviting to someone also to spread it through times that only time can tell, even if you're not that interesting person when you still alive, a choice or a certain thing you've done, have created a big change/impact to other lives.

Be glad and live the greatest gift fully and as much as you can, capture every aspect of it, as long as you did not step one's right of living.

Be yourself....

For so many times, attending and joining events or invites of some new friends and even old friends, there's always times wherein you can feel the people around to make you someone who your not, and thus it's normal to me already. I guess I'm used to it already, perhaps I can't deny the feeling of arrogance from them
and plasticity of others towards you which can provoke somehow and sometimes for you to do same thing.

Well, it maybe a bothering moment when you feel the awkwardness within the group of people that trying to make you that someone they think you are when in the first place just knew you according to what they see you , but not able to know you deeply of who you really are.

I do judge other people sometimes, but not to the extent that trying to mold them into someone, I may say i am a B.I. to others for I likely try to hook them to go out the box from where they are hiding, yet I myself may also need, but in my perception at this moment, I am able to show and know myself deeply and proud to say that what I am doing is actually what I like to do and thus it makes me happy; the best thing is that I'm happy..

I may ended up being childish of what I am now, but that's how I am, other's may seems so jealous of me in some other reason but I can't actually know why they must be jealous on me. I lived in simple ways, and laughed at simple things and problems.

I rather have smaller friends than having many plastic one and user type of friends.. I know when to ask for help and who I will ask for help, I am sad to know that most of those people I already accept as true friends are the one who are abusers and user's.. That's how life goes on, I guess; and I need to journey with it to have a wonderful experiences; like other say, friends come and go; the one that's left are the true friends, that you never know who are with you without your knowing...

I'm thankful for those true friends, I who you are, I will not just type your names; and thanks to those user, abuser and plastic friends, I do have great time with you guys, and learn many things from, I do still cherish the moments we've shared... 

Feeling in-love...

There seems to be things that you can tell nor understand well,

especially when a sudden emotion comes unexpectedly in your way.
You may get troubled with what you feel and how to interact with it,
you may loss connection and concentration to what your expected to do.

But, the less you expect will mostly comes to you, as many people say,
love always comes in mysterious ways.... naks!

Though, even you already able to understand the emotions of in-love,
there are still uncertain commotions in your head wanting to understand it;
you go through analyzing things, weighing it up if it will be good for you,
or thus the action that you plan to do in accordance to it is in manner.

Well, sometimes in our lives, love comes not just once but for many times;
yet in different weighs and different ways, events and even different time..
It will not come to you in compact, however, it comes to you like a criminal;
hostages your heart and mind whenever you ever met that someone,
and that moment will give you unexpected instance to directly contradict,
maybe sometimes you can, yet most often you likely to let it manifest you.

Things about feeling in-love is that you can't control everything in you,
that it can even get you feeling sick, annoying, fool and what's best with it,
you feel proud and you tend to bring out the best of you...

Hmm... However, whenever you already have the capacity to rule over it,
you try to ignore it, remove it, especially if your looking for high standards,
and thus got many checklist about love...wew!!!

Love in the other hand doesn't need any of qualities, it only matters on how
and when to interact with it. Go with the flow of love can bring happiness,
add spices to our lives and excites us on what are other things we can do more
with the one we fall in-love to..

MMK: Manika

Since childhood, I am watching this great anthology drama series of ABS-CBN the MMK: Maalaala Mo Kaya. This anthology drama series on television had already been 20 years on run. It had already play various drama in life of lots of Filipino that captured the essence of family oriented and thus creates the view of being hopeful in life even in the darkest hour of living.

As a viewer, I can say that it has lots of interesting moral lessons on each episodes, besides of having different stories shared by the viewers, it also able to pick great artist to give justice to the roles of every story.

One of the most talked episode on MMK was the episode titled "Manika" which is based on a mother who able to let her daughter be molested and same time she also helped her partner to rape her own daughter.

It's really really a disturb and brutal episode that it had been moved from showing the date it must be shown to public. Thus, the movie had captured many hearts, yet it really is giving the viewers opinion to come out from the closet because of the strong and distractive scenes of the show that was an awkward action of the mother to her daughter.

For the actors and actress of the episode, Congrats! You really give justice to the episode, I may say. The episode has become one of the most unforgettable episode of the MMK(Maalala Mo Kaya).

For those who haven't watch the episode, here it is guyz:

http://www.phnoy.com/2012/06/mmk-manika-june-30-2012-replay.html


Just click the link above and you will be then redirected to the episode videos:

Student's life I missed

I miss the days when I was still a student, especially the friends I used to have way back then.
It's just an emotional part of me that keeps me linking the past specially when I'm down and in doubt.
I can resist the feeling of being alone when my emotional side will subside my whole personality.

Now that the school days has just begun, many young faces, and upon seeing the students, here I go
again, reminiscing the moments I had way back from my student's life. It's just so happy to see students
with the same character I have back then, wherein I always do things that interest me event-though
I will be having hard time doing such things yet, in return, I am happy with what will be the outcome
especially when i learn new things and ideas.

As the years gone by, many things that I may say that the youth now are not that happy in small things
since they mostly dependent on the gadgets they have, though there are still a few who used to have
the simple things we had back then. It may sound so uncool today if you write love letters and have the
simplest date through walking side by side with the girl you love, cause, as what I have observed; Nowadays, young lovers are always talking to each other through mobile phones, and sometimes,
texting each other,  unlike the days in high school I have wherein, you have that passionate talk with each
other while walking on way home..

Hmm.. Now, I can say there are few people still on contact, and still have this conversation if got time,
since most of my friends have already had build there own family now, soon I wish can have my own...

Totally Jerk

Most cases in our society nowadays, men are not the one pushing himself to a girl anymore, rather, men are now in silent motion of life. Well, maybe I'm wrong, but in the society we have today, girls are really getting in the motion. They are now the one who make things in their option, unlike the latter days, wherein men are in the motion in anything.

Although, this is the case, maybe it is the output of being equality in sexual preferences. But still there are individuals who have not been granted such opportunity as we have now.. I may be out of the topic but this is only to introduce the things.

Jerk, this word is usually used by anyone to describe someone who is not sense-full enough to understand the things happening around them. Most individuals used this word are the girls, especially if they like to a guy very much that they are willing to do crazy things just to get the attention of the person they really attached to.

I usually observed that this word are usually used to described good looking individuals whom did not give to someone who liked him/her much. I myself, not to be boastful, I been told that I'm a jerk. Yes' definitely I'm a jerk, totally a jerk, even at home, school, work or even in anywhere. I can't easily understand the behaviors of the someone who already attached to me that easily without my knowing.

Besides, this things are only noticeable to other person rather to the one being focused to. Preferably, people like to play hide and seek in the situation of love that's why, when that someone who is longing for the attention of their most desired person, when they get totally damn of seeking thing just to get the attention of that person, they will eventually call him/her jerk, or more often, tell them they are jerk.

In my stand about this thing, I usually get caught by anyone else for being so jerk, especially my friends and to some people who know me. I'm not that good looking, I'm average looking guy but I cant easily understand some people way of calling my attention. Though I known some people who always call my attention, I sometimes give them what they want but not that often, since I try to give a space afterwards. I know it's wrong in other side, yet this is my way of putting a wall sometimes especially if I can't give that person's wants in me; or I don't like that person much.

I write this cause, I've been called coward which is worst than being a jerk, yet I can evaluate it that somehow in other sense being a jerk is coward. For now, jerk as I am, yet sooner, I'll not be anymore.

Being jerk is sometimes useful enough in most cases most specially to those who are already in a relationship, but in other way round, it is useful for those seeking their partner in life, but too much jerk is useless and it can make you countless and useless as well.

Hope you like this article.. I am pleased to read your suggestions and comments..

THE UNDYING LOVE

It's quite a long time already, since the last time I have contacted the one I'm falling to.
I haven't heard news from her and even to her partner.

I like to know what happened to the love they've shared for a long time already,
But seems the time is not in my side.. though I did not make any move, I also to know
what are the happening in their living now, still I wonder somehow to know,
if they're happily together.

Many will definitely tell me that I am a fool,
Yes, I accept the fact that I'm a fool for loving her,
Even for a long span of years already, still I felt love for her.

Many things I already applied just to forget the feelings I felt for her;
Yet, the many attempts I tried, the many people I secretly hurt..
That's why I tried to be happily being single at this time..

In this case, I can be true to myself and be happy of what life is all about.
Though there are moments that will bring back the memories of the past,
I still continue the things I believe is right, so that I can eventually be ready.

Ready, in the case of loving someone whom I will be loving for all of my life,
Though, we can't erased the past that I loved someone so special that I failed to have her,
But, still I'm happy for the outcome cause I know I'd made a good decision though,
It brought too much pain in me for a long span of time..

In the name of friendship....

Many times in our lives that we may fall in love;

Many times that we will be having bad modes;

Though it will happen to us mostly, occasionally,

Or typically,  it is just ordinary for us to feel that way.

We may end up happy by falling in-love to the right individual,

Or end up brokenhearted  still, we are the one making the decision.

Decision that despite of everything that may happen,

You will not regretting about..

In everyday living, trials may come and go, like the people we know.

They may seemed to last a long-time but not for a lifetime;

Though there were cases that the people we valued most,

Lived with us forevermore...

Many of the movies that had been showcased in our cinemas

Has this kind of trends, that love always end up a happy moments;

But it is required to sacrifice something valuable for us 

Before we get what our hearts truly wanted to have.

In some cases, to make us happy even if not for ourself;

We're willing to give our special someone to our dear friend,

Specially if we recognized the value of friendship preciously.

In the name of friendship, Things may changed.

It may end up happily or tragically on both sides; friendship and love.

I know, this is not clearly explained; but for those who encountered

Such experiences, they know what I'm talking about..

Not allccept, can make us sad,

There are things that we surrendered that makes everyone happy,

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