Be yourself....

For so many times, attending and joining events or invites of some new friends and even old friends, there's always times wherein you can feel the people around to make you someone who your not, and thus it's normal to me already. I guess I'm used to it already, perhaps I can't deny the feeling of arrogance from them
and plasticity of others towards you which can provoke somehow and sometimes for you to do same thing.

Well, it maybe a bothering moment when you feel the awkwardness within the group of people that trying to make you that someone they think you are when in the first place just knew you according to what they see you , but not able to know you deeply of who you really are.

I do judge other people sometimes, but not to the extent that trying to mold them into someone, I may say i am a B.I. to others for I likely try to hook them to go out the box from where they are hiding, yet I myself may also need, but in my perception at this moment, I am able to show and know myself deeply and proud to say that what I am doing is actually what I like to do and thus it makes me happy; the best thing is that I'm happy..

I may ended up being childish of what I am now, but that's how I am, other's may seems so jealous of me in some other reason but I can't actually know why they must be jealous on me. I lived in simple ways, and laughed at simple things and problems.

I rather have smaller friends than having many plastic one and user type of friends.. I know when to ask for help and who I will ask for help, I am sad to know that most of those people I already accept as true friends are the one who are abusers and user's.. That's how life goes on, I guess; and I need to journey with it to have a wonderful experiences; like other say, friends come and go; the one that's left are the true friends, that you never know who are with you without your knowing...

I'm thankful for those true friends, I who you are, I will not just type your names; and thanks to those user, abuser and plastic friends, I do have great time with you guys, and learn many things from, I do still cherish the moments we've shared...