Unworthiness

Arrgggh... I am feeling so so down and freaking mad, I can get myself to feel ok.
It's a feeling that keeps me feel so tired and lifeless, and I really really don't like it at all.

A kind of frustration that keeps myself pushing to rest and eventually surrender the life I got.
It's weird and lonely feeling being lost and mad at something you can't think will be happening
In a snap of time. I guess it's another kind of experience for me to experience this emotion.

I most often disagree to anybody when they tell me that they are in a situation of ending up their
life. I preferably been so disappointed to them that time I heard some of my old mates will tell me
this things. It's somehow challenge and questioned myself that time that how life is so adventure to
live and to journey.

Then, their they are wanting to end it up; maybe it will just come to you in a matter of time and event
for you to be able to understand life by it's nature of being so mysterious. Now that I have this feeling
it's very uncomfortable to stay, it's just you wanted to do something different that you haven't done yet.


Maybe that's why there were actually people do something unexpectedly in your views as what you
have knew them; cause you don't know if they are in a situation of being so so frustrated already.
Maybe it's cause by and event , a problem or a simple being so alone in their living.

I may had not arrange the context of this article but I know that you know what I am talking to..

Well hoping that this frustration I felt right now will not be staying long, cause I know I am not
capable of handling this for a long run. It's sad to say but it's a kind of feeling of unworthiness for being alive.....